I always thought that those who know me, know what kind of person I am. However, I've recently discovered that I am not immune to any witch hunt. Those who've known you your whole life, even, may easily believe lies about you. It is important to remember here, that family is not chosen and that some of them may belong to that vast sameness that you are not part of. Just because you are different, doesn't mean those you have come from are, too.
I was recently told that a family member told my grandfather that I said I was going to let my son decide if he was a boy or a girl. Now, I can't be sure that this is actually what was said or if it's just what my grandfather heard and you know how the game of telephone goes, but let's assume it's what my grandfather heard. He believed it, without question. So, it is obvious to any of my group of "different" friends who know me that I would never say or do anything of the sort. I am all for breaking gender roles and stereotypes, but I do not believe that gender is a choice, like AT ALL. I think it would be ridiculous to take a boy who obviously identifies as a boy and say, "Son, do you want to be a boy or a girl?" I mean seriously? By that same logic, I do not believe that a boy who identifies as a girl or a girl who identifies as a boy has any more choice in the matter. Gender identity is not, in my opinion, a choice.
This, however, is not the issue I mean to get to. We can talk all day long about gender identity, roles, stereotypes, but... My point, dear readers, is that people of the "non-different" group, if you will, will find it incredibly easy to believe ridiculous things about you when you are of the "different" group. My grandfather took what he heard and easily accepted it as fact. After all, that Lauren, she's a strange one, that's something she would do right? When you do not fit into the typical, predictable idea of a person, a woman, whatever, most people will believe almost any ridiculous thing about you. All of the "crazy " things that have happened in our history, all of the stories of persecution that seem so horrifying in hindsight, even to your average person I can see now will happen again and again and again ad nauseam. Because most people do not realize how easily they will vilify those who are different, they do so without realizing it and frequently.
So I now see, I have a lot to fear in this world. I try to share and educate and spread knowledge and questioning, because I see so much value in it and I know that if more people were a little different, then we are all a little safer, a little smarter, a little more capable, understanding, etc.. I am losing faith though. I don't think it's going to work. Our government, education system, media, health care system, food system, all run by corporations, have been working a long time at creating a "normal" about us. They want us to not be different because it's all much easier that way - another brick in the wall if you will. If people don't question anything they are much easier to use and to polarize and to turn against one another.
Like I said, I am losing faith. I used to think that I could help change these things. I could just write and share and if I just kept trying and believing and being positive, that I could help change the world or at least the beliefs or thoughts of those around me (and with the butterfly effect and all, right?) I still believe that if enough people change their way of thinking, we can change things for the better. That's what revolution is, I think. Maybe that's not possible anymore, or maybe it's just America. What do you think? Are we too far gone? Is there any hope? I just don't know.
Now in case you were wondering I didn't say anything about my son being able to choose his gender. OBVIOUSLY. I do remember talking to someone about not wanting to cut his beautiful hair. Babies really don't look like one gender or the other without some serious effort on the clothes and accessories front. I really don't care if someone thinks my son's hair is too long and he "looks like a girl." He is a secure person and I know he always will be, I mean with a name like Maverick, how could he not right? Right?! But seriously, His hair getting a little long is not going to feminize him and I know that. Maybe the non-differents don't, but that's their problem. To them, all I have to say is: